the Awakening: What on Earth are you here for?

The title was there, but it was a blank page.

Before I opened the document, I thought about what I wanted to say and how I didn't want to do it now. There are other things to write.

It's not that I haven't been writing. I've been writing quite a bit these days, actually. I've been on a journey. A spiritual, mental, stimulating journey. Lots of thinking involved.

It was is refreshing.

Do you ever feel like there is another calling in your life? As if you are not meant to sit still and accept things / your surroundings as they are...

It's not about being content. Gratitude is always necessary. It's about disrupting the way people think and imagine the world. Inspiring them to open their eyes to see your perspective on a simple matter.

For me, that matter is love. Is that odd? I've always been in love with the thoughts, ideas, definitions, and [more abstract] feelings of what love is, could, and should be. I particularly remember learning about the four types of love in a Greek philosophy course at Uni - philia ("brotherly love"), eros ("love, mostly of the sexual passion"), storge ("familial love" like between parent-child), and agápē ("love: the highest form of love, especially brotherly love, charity; the love of God for man and of man for God").

When you find something that you love or that you are passionate about, it burns you up inside. Something like eros...your passion or purpose gets you excited to have any opportunity to engage in it and share the love that you have. Sometimes you don't understand how people find it hard to see your perspective and why it's so important, but it's okay. We're all pieces in a really big puzzle community with different sections (assignments, people, places) to focus on.

Your assignment is your purpose. It could be for a moment, a season, or even a lifetime. The fact is that if you're still breathing and able to read this article, there's still something for you to do. What are you doing with your time? Do you know what you should be focusing on, or do you let life pass you by without many questions asked? Maybe even feeling a little numb...

If you tell me that this is false and that you don't have a place on this Earth, then I'd like to talk to you about the lies you may be listening to in your head.
There's so much to be done! So many new inventions to create. Apps to be built. Children to be made. Songs to be sung. Grass to be cut. Animals to be cared for. Toilets to be unclogged. So many things that only you could help with at the right time and place.

Don't become restless trying to figure out your great destiny; but live in each moment as if there is a reason for where you are, who you're with, and when.

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to New Beginnings

I've lost myself. I don't know what I love or why to live. I don't want to die because I know that I have a purpose, but everything seems extremely hazy right now. I don't feel the same sense of direction I've had for as long as I can remember. I am always the person planning and I always have my life together. I feel like something has been ripped away from me and I don't know how to get it back. I feel like the only way to really get me back is to start over again.

I saw myself slipping away -- the person I once knew and loved -- but I didn't know how to stop it. I didn't realize that I would continue to lose more of me.

If I am lost, then there is hope. Whatever is lost must be found. I always try to remember that although I cannot find what I am looking for at the moment, it is somewhere within reach and it is patiently waiting for me to realize that it's there.

I need to figure out where to start looking. Does it matter why I feel like I've lost myself? If it was stolen from me, should I be searching for why or by whom rather than trying to fix it? I don't know why it's so hard for me to rekindle my old self.

Perhaps this is my opportunity for a new beginning. The chance to mold exactly who I'd like to be. Where do I start? I begin with characteristics that I admire. Then, I express why I exemplify those characteristics, as well as how they relate to my future goals.

I've decided to throw out a lot of my old belongings, due to my desire for a fresh start. I think my experiences have brought me to a place that I am proud of; however, I would like them to stay in the past and allow only the memories to remain. Throwing away things from my past is symbolism for distancing myself from Me in my previous life.


&& this. is to: new beginnings.

Something like it

That person should know how to make you feel happy all the time; and when there are issues, they know exactly how to make it right. A compliment together; of each other.

They are always that person to make you feel complete..the other half, content in all your ways and his. No judgment; only encouragement to be better than the now.

Embracing all your beauty...regardless of it being a "mistake" or incredible -- it is loved.

Someone once told me that you have to choose what you win or lose. You can't have everything.
Don't take chances -- Might feel the pain.

I used to believe that for so long...watched this life pass me by, so unhappy, but safe as could be.

So what if it hurts me? So what if i break down? So what if this world just throws me off the edge.

Don't care about all the pain in front of me

I just wanna be happy.

I guess it just suggests that this is just what happiness is....

Is it possible to live in a lifetime where nothing comes out the way you wanted it....but it seems to have worked out even better than you could have imagined?

2009 has been wonderful. It started out spectacular with some of the best people I know [mi familia, angie, tanzie, leni]. I finally got to start at AU...the anticipated beginning to a new chapter in my life. From frat parties to clubs to girls' nights [♥ c³jk ♥] to randomly meeting celebrities. Obama's inauguration should be a highlight...but I was still passed out from the night before trying to chill with Akon to give a damn. HAHAHA [oh angie, jez...memories]. My ongoing obsession for men in the military seems to have increased and I blame my wonderful friend for that [<3>

And the summer days...I think there is only one thing to say: Drake, I love you. And only fate got me and angie into VIP....and I think the story should remain there of that wonderful night. Haha. There's the beach and the transformation....there just seemed to be no point in hook ups or spending money to be hit on by guys that were just not cutting it. Forget Spring Awakening -- although, it was a GREAT show -- it was my awakening :)

Wine is in, Vodka is out!

And then I was blessed with the greatest roommate [yes, she's better than yours] and figuring who my real friends are. It was all so beautiful. Doors opened for the greatest people to walk into my life, and I never want them to leave. I was honored with wonderful opportunities and can only smile about the positive -- since I can't really remember anything negative. But for what it's worth...what I do remember, I can be happy to have learned from my past and use it to create a better future.

Welcome, 2010...I've been waiting for you <3

"I don’t want to have to do this – this living! I just walk around! I want to be swept off my feet, you know? I want my children to have magical powers. I am prepared for amazing things to happen. I can handle it." -- Me and You and Everyone We Know :)