tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-80247768889956379862024-03-19T01:47:43.391-04:00Welcome to My World <3Christine V. Edmondhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14138730874189943822noreply@blogger.comBlogger49125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8024776888995637986.post-84568255276365440042017-08-24T16:17:00.000-04:002017-08-24T16:17:01.212-04:00This Time Last Year: Seasons ChangeThis time last year, I was here. Full of life. Full of passion. ... Just letting it all happen.<br />
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What's happened up to now? What's happening now?<br />
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Change is in the air, and it's a new season.<br />
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I didn't want things to stay the same. Hungry for change; now everything that I was a part of now seems like something in the far distance. I can't even believe such short time has passed. The vision is still there, but the mission has shifted. The way to approach is different.<br />
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How does change actually happen? What are the actions that we should take on this Earth to truly have an impact and make a difference?<br />
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When I took my first step in entering the cannabis industry, it was with a heart on fire to help people who were in situations that did not allow them to help themselves. At the center of it all, in my heart and mind, that vision is still the same.<br />
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How do we reach people in need of saving/a savior? Is it through activism, word of mouth/marketing, or sowing seeds along the way? Is this journey going to be a lonely path or does it require building with the skills of others? How do you know who those people are? How do you decide on the right opportunities along the way?<br />
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I'm still on the path to understanding. I am not chasing money. I am not chasing fame.<br />
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I am simply seeking Wisdom.<br />
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"God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change; courage to change the things I can; and wisdom to know the difference."<br />
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Christine V. Edmondhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14138730874189943822noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8024776888995637986.post-13734031682439716062017-02-28T09:15:00.000-05:002017-02-28T09:18:09.919-05:00Rocket Launched! Becoming Who We AreWHOA. What happened in 2016?! How did an entire year go back without writing a blog post (here or on the <a href="http://www.shewantsitherway.blogspot.com/" target="_blank">travel blog</a>), or even many entries in my journal—including songs, prayers, random thoughts, and poems.<br />
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I suppose a lot has happened in the last 12+ months....<br />
Actually, my entire life changed.<br />
...Again.<br />
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I had <a href="https://shewantsitherway.blogspot.com/2012/09/time-never-stands-still.html" target="_blank">another breaking bad moment</a>, but this time was more like <b>a rocket ship lifted me off into full throttle</b>. I discovered a part of me that was on fire and hungry to empower others to see[k] truth and change.<br />
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Two days before entering 2016, I attended my first DC NORML (<a href="http://norml.org/" target="_blank">National Organization for the Reformation of Marijuana Laws</a>) meeting (I previously attended several meetings in Virginia).<br />
I'm not sure if it was the contagious energy of the executive director or the energy from the company that led me to attend, but something inside was triggered.
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It made sense.</h3>
Taking on a double minor in undergrad at American University, I studied psychology and justice, law and society on top of my journalism major. I chose to take courses like Drugs and Human Behavior; Drugs, Consciousness, & Fulfillment; and Law, Psychology and Justice...among others with a similar theme.<br />
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My goal? To understand (<i>and also #nonprofitstartupfuturegoals</i>).<br />
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Until college, I was a proud and supportive <b>DARE</b> advocate. That was until I realized it is all propaganda, especially when it comes to the <a href="https://plants.usda.gov/core/profile?symbol=CASA3" target="_blank">Cannabis Sativa plant</a>, and that all the honor students "smoke pot." Surely the smart kids couldn't/shouldn't be excluded from the list of "good people," as the new attorney general may propose. 😒<br />
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At this point, we realize DARE does not keep people from their curiosities, and instead creates ignorance by covering truths. As the <i>New Jim Crow</i> notes, we are wasting money and resources to put nonviolent people who should not only be spending time being productive in the world, but they could be spending time building and investing (please think beyond money) in society...and with their families.<br />
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War on Drugs? ...nah.</h3>
But the drug war goes further than stealing lives and years from people (<i>read</i> <a href="https://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=John+10%3A10&version=NLT" target="_blank">John 10:10</a>)—particularly against people who look like me.<br />
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Looking at the grande scheme of the Universe, the drug war is really an attack on the family. <i>This is my biggest heartbreak.</i><br />
Taking fathers, mothers, and caregivers away from the future generation; to be sent behind bars, made to feel like a criminal (I love you, you're <u>probably not</u>).<br />
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If you've seen any of the <a href="https://www.moviefone.com/2015/06/12/best-prison-tv-shows/" target="_blank">shows making money</a> from sharing behind the scenes of the demoralizing prison system, then you know it's not somewhere you want to end up when you're just trying to peacefully live your life without causing harm to anyone.........including yourself...<br />
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Once this truth was unveiled to me through both my classroom and real life encounters, I knew that I couldn't keep this realized truth for and to myself. Believing this as part of my purpose/existence, I barely felt any fear in knowing that I am a first-generation American with Christian parents who are not supportive of supporting anything that the law says 'no' to.<br />
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But the revelation came to me. The law: written <i>and</i> inspired by man's personal desired outcome, has once also said that blacks and whites cannot eat in the same place or marry; women could not hold certain roles or vote; and blacks are only worth 3/5 of a person..... <b>I'm sorry, but no.</b> I hope your convictions on the laws of man have been altered because this flux and subjectiveness is our human reality.<br />
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The Mission</h2>
So <i>how could I</i> ignore the number of [black] <a href="https://www.aclu.org/gallery/marijuana-arrests-numbers" target="_blank">people behind [privately owned] bars</a> who never hurt anyone, including themselves? Or the millions of sick patients who can benefit from the healing of a plant with zero negative side effects (depending on the strain and your evening plans)?<br />
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"For the LORD has anointed me to bring good news to the poor. He has sent me to comfort the brokenhearted and to proclaim that captives will be released and prisoners will be freed," says Isaiah 61:1 (NLT). No, I'm not Jesus or the Messiah, but being created in His image, I was also created for this purpose -- and so were you.<br />
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<b>It is not the healthy who need a doctor, but the sick.</b> Of course I strongly believe this statement goes beyond the need for physical healing, though that's part of it.<br />
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The mission is simple: Truth, <i>Liberty and Justice for all</i>. I think we were forced to say that every day in school and "I don’t believe that when God made marijuana he made a mistake that government needs to fix," as stated by <a href="http://www.alternet.org/drugs/texas-christian-conservative-makes-case-ending-pot-prohibition">Texas Representative David Simpson</a> (R).<br />
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But this post is not really about my personal convictions and beliefs. It is about what I have been doing and the divine opportunities presented because of them.<br />
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The Rocket Launch</h3>
After the last DC NORML meeting of 2015 and numerous conversations with a friend and figure in the cannabis industry, my mind became restless. Knowing what I learned in school and about the people deeply entrenched with the underground in other places, I was surprised that this awakening didn't come sooner! Even my cell phone number clearly confirms this direction, though I missed it all along!<br />
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<b> I had to do something. I had to get involved.</b><br />
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In February 2016, my rocket ship officially launched. I was READY to make moves and shake things up. I met Adam Eidinger of <a href="http://www.dcmj.com/" target="_blank">DCMJ</a> on the NPR Kojo Knamdi Show, reached out to the legendary activist <a href="https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dana_Beal" target="_blank">Dana Beal</a> for advice and support, spoke to teachers at DCPS to explain the new cannabis laws and how they can address it with their students, and topped it off at the Capitol CannaShow -- which opened windows and doors to amazing relationships.<br />
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This was all in one month. I was praying hard before all of this about purpose and direction (this all shortly followed after reading <i><a href="https://www.amazon.com/Purpose-Driven-Life-Rick-Warren/dp/0310205719/ref=pd_sbs_14_t_0?_encoding=UTF8&psc=1&refRID=TQP2KVM10CMKHKCBJWBY" target="_blank">Purpose Drive Life</a></i>), and knew the seamless flow and series of events/encounters over the next 6 months had to be a divine appointment (before that NORML meeting, I had just gotten baptized in my adult life and was packing boxes to move to California, which are still packed LOL). I've met some inspiring, well-known, and influential people in the $6.7 billion industry (<a href="https://www.forbes.com/sites/debraborchardt/2017/01/03/marijuana-sales-totaled-6-7-billion-in-2016/#40992cce75e3">Forbes</a>). I've been inspired and engaged with all types of people through various events, political movements, conferences, and private partnerships. 😻<br />
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Fast forward a year later, and now I work as an editor for the <b>BEST online publication for current and aspiring cannabis executives and leaders</b> in the industry, <a href="http://www.cannabisbusinessexecutive.com/"><i>Cannabis Business Executive</i></a>. The rocket ship's door flung wide open, literally combining my knowledge of journalism with my distinct courses in psych/law to finally make that $200K education bill worth it. Even better? My heart is for helping others develop themselves personally <u>and</u> professionally (first they must be free), and this publication does just that for a niche industry!<br />
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I've been silent for the last year because I've been building. Not for myself, but for a Kingdom that I've been created for and hope others will join. The enlightenment of my connection to support the cannabis industry didn't stop there. My eyes opened to dreams that I forgot were in my heart as a child...but I let the world's distractions of paying bills and "having fun" disrupt that path. So much has happened. Amazing encounters. Wonderful people, and new lifelong friends. Moments of self-awakening.<br />
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I just wish God told me sooner that this is where I should be!<br />
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Nevertheless, here I am and <a href="https://www.whitehouse.gov/law-enforcement-community" target="_blank">NOW is the time</a>.<br />
I refuse to be so silent with writing... but I have been busy building and cannot make promises about the next time I'll say 'hi'. <b>"The wise woman builds her house...</b>" (Prov. 14:1 NLT).<br />
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Look up and look ahead. Never underestimate the power of a seed (<i>mustard or hemp ;</i>).<br />
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We'll be waiting for when your eyes open.<br />
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Christine V. Edmondhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14138730874189943822noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8024776888995637986.post-67799636657858042882015-11-07T12:27:00.000-05:002015-11-08T12:32:43.735-05:00the Awakening: What on Earth are you here for?<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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The title was there, but it was a blank page.<br />
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Before I opened the document, I thought about what I wanted to say and how I didn't want to do it now. There are other things to write.<br />
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It's not that I haven't been writing. I've been writing quite a bit these days, actually. I've been on a journey. A spiritual, mental, stimulating journey. Lots of thinking involved.<br />
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It <strike>was</strike> <i>is </i>refreshing.<br />
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It's not about being content. Gratitude is always necessary. It's about <b>disrupting </b>the way people think and imagine the world. Inspiring them to open their eyes to see your perspective on a simple matter.<br />
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<b>For me, that matter is love.</b> Is that odd? I've always been in love with the thoughts, ideas, definitions, and [more abstract] feelings of what love is, could, and should be. I particularly remember learning about the four types of love in a Greek philosophy course at Uni - <a href="https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Philia" target="_blank"><i>philia</i></a> ("brotherly love"), <a href="https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Eros_%28concept%29" target="_blank"><i>eros</i></a> ("love, mostly of the sexual passion"), storge ("familial love" like between parent-child), and <a href="https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Agape" target="_blank"><i>ag</i><i>ápē</i></a> ("love: the highest form of love, especially brotherly love, charity; the love of God for man and of man for God").<br />
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<b>When you find something that you love or that you are passionate about, it burns you up inside.</b> Something like <i>eros</i>...your passion or purpose gets you excited to have any opportunity to engage in it and share the love that you have. Sometimes you don't understand how people find it hard to see your perspective and why it's so important, but it's okay. We're all pieces in a really big puzzle community with different sections (assignments, people, places) to focus on.<br />
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<b>Your assignment is your purpose. </b>It could be for a moment, a season, or even a lifetime. The fact is that if you're still breathing and able to read this article, there's still something for you to do. What are you doing with your time? Do you know what you should be focusing on, or do you let life pass you by without many questions asked? Maybe even feeling a little numb...<br />
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If you tell me that this is false and that you don't have a place on this Earth, then I'd like to talk to you about the lies you may be listening to in your head.<br />
There's so much to be done! So many new inventions to create. Apps to be built. Children to be made. Songs to be sung. Grass to be cut. Animals to be cared for. Toilets to be unclogged. So many things that <b>only you</b> could help with at the right time and place.<br />
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Don't become restless trying to figure out your
great destiny; but live in each moment as if there is a reason for where you are, who you're with, and when.<br />
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<b>Join me every Tuesday on <a href="http://www.blab.im/ahmazingCVE" target="_blank">blab.im/AhmazingCVE</a> for "Curious Chats w. Christine," where I speak with dozens of people who are chasing after their dreams, visions, and purpose all over the world. </b><i>Perhaps it will help you realize your potential...</i>Christine V. Edmondhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14138730874189943822noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8024776888995637986.post-26466432287932281362015-01-12T01:31:00.000-05:002015-01-12T01:31:08.782-05:00Being alive is not enough<div style="font-family: Calibri; font-size: 11.0pt; margin: 0in;">
Stop. Sit still.
Watch. Listen. Be aware of your surroundings. Take note.</div>
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Where is your mind
in every situation? Are you present or, like me, thinking of the possibilities?</div>
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The last year or two
has not been the same. I would write, but not post. My travels and adventures
have taken me to many places that I want to share…but I have not. I am the only
one to blame for not focusing on what matters most - who I am and where I am going.</div>
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Can you believe I am
still trying to pick up the pieces from when I left Australia? My mind must
have surely been frazzled to the maxx! It's been 3 years now, but I am still on
the road to recovery. I am still so very grateful that I am where I am today…so
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However, being alive
is not enough anymore. I want to live. I need to breathe! I long to <i>feel</i> again.</div>
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I've had the
opportunity to reflect in the last few months. And I've honestly avoided this in
the last 2 years and focused more on making memories disappear or go dormant
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A key theme since
the commencement of 2015? The past is over. It cannot move with you unless you
bring it. There are enough troubles for today…and tomorrow!</div>
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I just feel like I'm
in a different place - which is most definitely a good thing. I just need to
figure out where to go from here. My heart is in a difficult place.</div>
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At least I know, I'm
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More to come...and memories to share.</div>
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<span style="font-style: italic; font-weight: bold;">Matthew 6:34 (NKJV) -
"Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about
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Christine V. Edmondhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14138730874189943822noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8024776888995637986.post-44787268983815522782011-05-31T01:09:00.000-04:002015-07-27T05:56:36.339-04:00to New BeginningsI've lost myself. I don't know what I love or why to live. I don't want to die because I know that I have a purpose, but everything seems extremely hazy right now. I don't feel the same sense of direction I've had for as long as I can remember. I am always the person planning and I always have my life together. I feel like something has been ripped away from me and I don't know how to get it back. I feel like the only way to really get me back is to start over again.<br />
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I saw myself slipping away -- the person I once knew and loved -- but I didn't know how to stop it. I didn't realize that I would continue to lose more of me.<br />
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If I am lost, then there is hope. Whatever is lost must be found. I always try to remember that although I cannot find what I am looking for at the moment, it is somewhere within reach and it is patiently waiting for me to realize that it's there.<br />
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I need to figure out where to start looking. Does it matter why I feel like I've lost myself? If it was stolen from me, should I be searching for why or by whom rather than trying to fix it? I don't know why it's so hard for me to rekindle my old self.<br />
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Perhaps this is my opportunity for a new beginning. The chance to mold exactly who I'd like to be. Where do I start? I begin with characteristics that I admire. Then, I express why I exemplify those characteristics, as well as how they relate to my future goals.<br />
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I've decided to throw out a lot of my old belongings, due to my desire for a fresh start. I think my experiences have brought me to a place that I am proud of; however, I would like them to stay in the past and allow only the memories to remain. Throwing away things from my past is symbolism for distancing myself from Me in my previous life.<br />
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&& this. is to: new beginnings.Christine V. Edmondhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14138730874189943822noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8024776888995637986.post-66155176333877494502011-05-03T16:00:00.001-04:002011-05-03T16:01:38.360-04:00something like the future/creating a better (tom)orrowQuick Listen: <a href="https://blackboard.american.edu/@@/F07CF3E0C9C0308BE43486F05F0037F4/courses/1/COMM-385-001-2011S/attempt/_1049325_1/s/Edmond_Final.mp3">Mini-Documentary</a><br />
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Working at WAMU and producing material in my Broadcast Journalism class is allowing me to experiment with different sub-cultures of broadcast media. There is the entertainment industry, news, podcasts (an audience for all), sports, and many other things.<br />
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Before I got into Broadcast Journalism, I knew that I did not want to do news. It’s interesting that I’m now interning for the metro’s number one public radio station, bringing you news and stories from the District.<span id="more-1151"></span><br />
There’s a segment on WAMU called “Metro Connection” that brings a human interest story to life for listeners. After working on a story regarding obesity with one of the reporters for the past few weeks, I am inspired.<br />
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I completed my Broadcast Journalism I final about shoes. The assignment was to create a mini-documentary that lasted between 4 to 8 minutes. I covered shoes in a materialistic, superficial manner in which people talked about their favorite shoes and I brought in multi-cultural perspectives; however, I wanted to go deeper. Leading from different cultural perspectives (namely Indian and Kenyan), I talked about <a href="http://www.toms.com/">Tom</a><a href="http://www.toms.com/">s shoes</a> and the impact buying one pair of shoes can have on a child. The message was one for one. (<a href="https://blackboard.american.edu/@@/F07CF3E0C9C0308BE43486F05F0037F4/courses/1/COMM-385-001-2011S/attempt/_1049325_1/s/Edmond_Final.mp3">Listen Below</a>)<br />
Seven minutes and forty-four seconds later, I created a compelling story that brought together human interest and the awareness of social responsibility. Completing this assignment and working at WAMU has encouraged me to pursuit human interest stories like this.<br />
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AU was not wrong when they encouraged students to embrace the term “Wonk” after they modified the definition. I do want to create meaningful change in the world and I am passionate about doing whatever it takes to make sure people know the truth about certain human rights and inequalities. Stories that interest me are things that are often overlooked and do not receive enough attention from the media or society.<br />
I want to create that change so that there can be a better tomorrow.<br />
Mini-Documentary: <a href="https://blackboard.american.edu/@@/F07CF3E0C9C0308BE43486F05F0037F4/courses/1/COMM-385-001-2011S/attempt/_1049325_1/s/Edmond_Final.mp3">Let’s Get Some Shoes!</a>Christine V. Edmondhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14138730874189943822noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8024776888995637986.post-33087921054590195162011-03-31T18:20:00.000-04:002015-11-07T00:41:57.398-05:00The Way Life Should Be<span class="text"><span style="font-family: "arial";">I'm not sure <b><br />
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<span class="text"><span style="font-family: "arial";"><b>1.</b> <i>Stop apologizing for things you didn't do.</i><br />
<b>2.</b> Become an optimist whilst retaining your pessimistic outlook.<br />
<b>3.</b> Be free.<br />
<b>4.</b> When you're stuck in a goldfish bowl, break out. <i>Pull a nemo.</i> Play dead. Get flushed.<br />
<b>5.</b> Stop drooling, start licking.<br />
<b>6.</b> Give up cappuccinos, drink more lattes.<br />
<b>7.</b> Learn to say "I love you" more often. It feels good. Really good.<br />
<b>8. </b>Don't forget, it's ok to be moody sometimes.<br />
<b>9. </b><i>Yes,</i> when he asks you in for coffee you should say yes.<br />
<b>10.</b> Become the person you want to be.<br />
<b>11.</b> Just let go. <br />
<b>12.</b> Learn to take a compliment, even if it's not the one you want to hear.<br />
<b>13.</b> Remember love doesn't find you on its own.<br />
<b>14.</b> Your story doesn't always need a beginning before the end.<br />
<b>15. </b>Admit your weakness to no one.<br />
<b>16. </b>There's always someone left to blame.<br />
<b>17.</b><i> Learn the art of selective hearing.</i><br />
<b>18.</b> Don't stop dreaming because there is no wrong in wanting something more.<br />
<b>19.</b> Nobody knows your limits better than you do, but every once in a while somebody will question all you know and they will push for you for the better.<br />
<b>20.</b> Take a chance.<br />
<b>21.</b> Wear your I ♥ Britney badge with pride.<br />
<b>22.</b> Just for a minute, forget about what's coming tomorrow.<br />
<b>23.</b> Everything obvious has been invented; Think outside the box.<br />
<b>24. </b><i>"We're so fairytale it makes people sick."</i><br />
<b>25.</b> Sometimes a thank you isn't enough<br />
<b>26.</b> Forgive but don't forget. <br />
<b>27.</b> Chase the rain.<br />
<b>28.</b> Don't let an invitation become an invasion.<br />
<b>29. </b>Sometimes running is the only way to fight your fears.<br />
<b>30.</b> Make dreams happen now. <br />
<b>31.</b> Don't waste another second, <i>please?</i><br />
<b>32.</b> Buy your pumpkins early.<br />
<b>33.</b> Discover the person you are before you find the person you need to be.<br />
<b>34.</b> Stop losing things, it costs.<br />
<b>35.</b> Defend your friends.<br />
<b>36.</b> Become your own Buffy; Fight your demons.<br />
<b>37.</b> It is NOT enough.<br />
<b>38. </b>Feel the freedom, even if it is a lie.<br />
<b>39.</b> Get your things and lose your way.<br />
<b>40. </b>You are what you make of yourself.<br />
<b>41.</b> Hold onto something good and don't let go.<br />
<b>42.</b> Don't try and fix what isn't broken.<br />
<b>43.</b> Learn something new. Teach something old.<br />
<b>44.</b> Don't believe a promise that can only be broken.<br />
<b>45.</b> Don't let yourself be somebody's priority if they are only your choice. <br />
<b>46.</b> Open your eyes or ignore what matters most.<br />
<b>47.</b> Time machines don't exist.<br />
<b>48. </b><i>Let go of the parts of life you honestly don't want.</i><br />
<b>49.</b> Learn to walk away. <br />
<b>50.</b> Some of the most wonderful people are the ones who don't fit into boxes.<br />
<b>51.</b> Erasing yourself from somebody's life is <i>not</i> as simple as walking out the door.<br />
<b>52.</b> We spend too long thinking about tomorrow when we could be learning from the yesterday we wanted to be today.<br />
<b>53.</b> Let your heart defy your logic.<br />
<b>54.</b> From now on, everyday will be the most important day.<br />
<b>55.</b> We are all equal in the evil and beauty we are capable of producing.<br />
<b>56.</b> <i>It's ok</i> to feel even the tiniest bit of fear.<br />
<b>57.</b> Do what you love and love what you do. </span></span>Christine V. Edmondhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14138730874189943822noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8024776888995637986.post-58284627720434457422011-02-19T17:12:00.000-05:002011-02-19T17:12:36.430-05:00Simple things in life we forget..<div style="text-align: center;"><i>Life is not complex. We are complex. Life is simple,<br />
and the simple thing is the right thing.<br />
- Oscar Wilde</i></div><div style="text-align: center;"><i> </i> </div>I stumbled upon this article noting <a href="http://www.marcandangel.com/2010/11/01/60-ways-to-make-life-simple-again/">60 Ways to Make Life Simple Again</a>. Read it. Personalize it. Apply it. <br />
<ol><li>Don’t try to read other people’s minds. Don’t make other people try to read yours. Communicate.</li>
<li>Be polite, but don’t try to be friends with everyone around you. Instead, spend time nurturing your relationships with the people who matter most to you.</li>
<li>Your health is your life, keep up with it. Get an annual physical check-up.</li>
<li>Live below your means. Don’t buy stuff you don’t need. Always sleep on big purchases. Create a budget and savings plan and stick to both of them.</li>
<li>Get enough sleep every night. An exhausted mind is rarely productive.</li>
<li> Get up 30 minutes earlier so you don’t have to rush around like a mad man. That 30 minutes will help you avoid speeding tickets, tardiness, and other unnecessary headaches.</li>
<li>Get off your high horse, talk it out, shake hands or hug, and move on.</li>
<li>Don’t waste your time on jealously. The only person you’re competing against is yourself.</li>
<li>Surround yourself with people who fill your gaps. Let them do the stuff they’re better at so you can do the stuff you’re better at.</li>
<li>Organize your living space and working space. Read David Allen’s book <a href="http://www.amazon.com/gp/product/0142000280?ie=UTF8&tag=marandang-20&linkCode=as2&camp=1789&creative=9325&creativeASIN=0142000280">Getting Things Done</a><img border="0" height="1" src="http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=marandang-20&l=as2&o=1&a=0142000280" style="border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important;" width="1" /> for some practical organizational guidance.</li>
<li>Get rid of stuff you don’t use.</li>
<li>Ask someone if you aren’t sure.</li>
<li>Spend a little time now learning a time-saving trick or shortcut that you can use over and over again in the future.</li>
<li>Don’t try to please everyone. Just do what you know is right.</li>
<li>Don’t drink alcohol or consume recreational drugs when you’re mad or sad. Take a jog instead.</li>
<li>Be sure to pay your bills on time.</li>
<li>Fill up your gas tank on the way home, not in the morning when you’re in a hurry.</li>
<li>Use technology to automate tasks.</li>
<li>Handle important two-minute tasks immediately.</li>
<li>Relocate closer to your place of employment.</li>
<li>Don’t steal.</li>
<li>Always be honest with yourself and others.</li>
<li>Say “I love you” to your loved ones as often as possible.</li>
<li>Single-task. Do one thing at a time and give it all you got.</li>
<li>Finish one project before you start another.</li>
<li>Be yourself.</li>
<li>When traveling, pack light. Don’t bring it unless you absolutely must.</li>
<li>Clean up after yourself. Don’t put it off until later.</li>
<li>Learn to cook, and cook.</li>
<li>Make a weekly (healthy) menu, and shop for only the items you need.</li>
<li>Consider buying and cooking food in bulk. If you make a large portion of something on Sunday, you can eat leftovers several times during the week without spending more time cooking.</li>
<li>Stay out of other people’s drama. And don’t needlessly create your own.</li>
<li>Buy things with cash.</li>
<li>Maintain your car, home, and other personal belongings you rely on.</li>
<li>Smile often, even to complete strangers.</li>
<li>If you hate doing it, stop it.</li>
<li>Treat everyone with the same level of respect you would give to your grandfather and the same level of patience you would have with your baby brother.</li>
<li>Apologize when you should.</li>
<li>Write things down.</li>
<li>Be curious. Don’t be scared to learn something new.</li>
<li>Explore new ideas and opportunities often.</li>
<li>Don’t be shy. Network with people. Meet new people.</li>
<li>Don’t worry too much about what other people think about you.</li>
<li>Spend time with nice people who are smart, driven, and likeminded.</li>
<li>Don’t text and drive. Don’t drink and drive.</li>
<li>Drink <strong>water</strong> when you’re thirsty.</li>
<li>Don’t eat when you’re bored. Eat when you’re hungry.</li>
<li>Exercise every day. Simply take a long, relaxing walk or commit 30 minutes to an at-home exercise program like the <a href="http://www.amazon.com/gp/product/B000TG8D6I?ie=UTF8&tag=marandang-20&linkCode=as2&camp=1789&creative=9325&creativeASIN=B000TG8D6I">P90X workout</a><img border="0" height="1" src="http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=marandang-20&l=as2&o=1&a=B000TG8D6I" style="border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important;" width="1" />.</li>
<li>Let go of things you can’t change. Concentrate on things you can.</li>
<li>Find hard work you actually enjoy doing.</li>
<li>Realize that the harder you work, the luckier you will become.</li>
<li>Follow your heart. Don’t waste your life fulfilling someone else’s dreams and desires.</li>
<li>Set priorities for yourself and act accordingly.</li>
<li>Take it slow and add up all your small victories.</li>
<li>However good or bad a situation is now, it will change. Accept this simple fact.</li>
<li>Excel at what you do. Otherwise you’ll just frustrate yourself.</li>
<li>Mature, but don’t grow up too fast.</li>
<li>Realize that you’re never quite as right as you think you are.</li>
<li>Build something or do something that makes you proud.</li>
<li>Make mistakes, learn from them, laugh about them, and move along.</li>
</ol> http://www.marcandangel.com/2010/11/01/60-ways-to-make-life-simple-again/Christine V. Edmondhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14138730874189943822noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8024776888995637986.post-42594931693136033042011-01-28T00:27:00.000-05:002011-01-28T00:27:13.629-05:00If the Plane Goes Down....Is it with the irony of life that leaves us with not what we want, but what we don't want and seem to need. The problem is that we refuse to see what we need and continue to focus on what we want. The inner conflict in every man and woman that seems to keep him or her from reaching full potential.<br />
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I want to experience everything life has to offer me, but I don't want to have to sacrifice. I don't want to sacrifice myself, my heart, or my time for faded memories or a boulevard of broken dreams. It makes sense why I like to plan now. There is no room for error. No mistakes. And even if there are, I'm prepared -- there's always a plan B.<br />
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Relationships don't work that way. People are unpredictable, no matter how much you think you have them down to a T. I always have that gut feeling about someone. It saves me from my own tragedy sometimes and other times, it causes me to fall in a rut that becomes difficult to get out of.<br />
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Then there are the people who continuously come into your life and it's SUCH a hard decision to make and decide whether this person is healthy for your life and is supposed to be there or if they're simply a distraction. But what are they a distraction from? The supposed to be's? How do we even know what is supposed to be?<br />
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It's quite frustrating to not have control over the future or people. It's fine, like, I understand why God said we can't have either. We are simply not God -- which, even he doesn't control people. We are all at will to do what we please, how we please, wherever we please...in hopes that it is the right decision for our lives and our paths.<br />
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We'll just see what happens next.Christine V. Edmondhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14138730874189943822noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8024776888995637986.post-34805163192854172052011-01-17T15:17:00.005-05:002011-01-25T01:16:17.755-05:00Something like it<div style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"><span style="font-size: small;">That person should know how to make you feel happy all the time; and when there are issues, they know exactly how to make it right. A compliment together; of each other. </span></div><div style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><br />
</span></div><div style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"><span style="font-size: small;">They are always that person to make you feel complete..the other half, content in all your ways and his. No judgment; only encouragement to be better than the now.</span></div><div style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><br />
</span></div><div style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"><span style="font-size: small;">Embracing all your beauty...regardless of it being a "mistake" or incredible -- it is loved.</span></div><div style="clear: both; font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif; text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: small;"><br />
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<div style="text-align: left;"><pre><span style="font-size: small;">Someone once told me that you have to choose what you win or lose. You can't have everything.
Don't take chances -- Might feel the pain.</span></pre><pre><span style="font-size: small;"> </span></pre><pre><span style="font-size: small;">I used to believe that for so long...watched this life pass me by, so unhappy, but safe as could be.</span></pre><pre><span style="font-size: small;"> </span></pre><pre><span style="font-size: small;">So what if it hurts me? So what if i break down? So what if this world just throws me off the edge.</span></pre><pre><span style="font-size: small;">Don't care about all the pain in front of me</span></pre><span style="font-family: "Trebuchet MS",sans-serif; font-size: small;">I just wanna be happy.</span><span style="font-size: small;"><br />
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[ ] Make social realities matter more -- NETWORK <br />
[ ] Experience life with no hesitation <br />
[ ] Reject negative energy and withdraw/confront <br />
[ ] Resist temptation if it has the potential to allow negative energy in my life <br />
[ ] Accept all things as they are without looking back <br />
[ ] Be assertive. <br />
[ ] Travel and love it <br />
[ ] Make any changes that i feel necessary along the way <br />
[ ] Live to be living without worrying about existing <br />
[ ] Smile and Be happy<br />
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When I was younger (age 7ish), I was told that I exude light. Not a hue of color, but my presence was one that lit up a room and it was quite lovely. I was too young to understand it and actually felt like it was not a compliment compared to other qualities I would have preferred to be noticed for. It was not until recently (over 10 years later) that I realized how important and what a blessing it is to carry such a "lovely" spirit. However, for some time in my life, I thought I no longer had that radiance. <br />
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Then 2010 happened, along with reality.<br />
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Anything and everything I had not experienced in life happened all at once. From the best moments to the worst. I met the most amazing people -- family (S/O SPX) -- while losing some along the way as well (RIP Jimmy <3). And going through my own personal hell with a smile on my face and no one to understand. <br />
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I could grumble and complain about how crappy 2010 was; however, I would like to believe that I am still the same person that can light up a room with a genuine small and a cheerful heart. Keeping it positive<br />
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The world doesn't stop because one thing happens...even if it is one thing after another. We all live in our own small worlds and someone else is doing the same, generally with ill regard to your world.<br />
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We are like ants walking around in our own ant village -- hunting, gathering, mating, and doing it all over again. We do not cross into the other ant villages if it is inconvenient. But when/if we do, we discover something different and we are able to take it back to our own village and allow it to better our own lives. So when we experience things that are not expected or disrupt part of the motions that we are used to, we can learn and apply.<br />
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That is what life is about, and that is what 2010 taught me. Life is about constantly learning, exploring, and hoping to make our own world a better place. It is possible to allow the negativity in the world to shatter your dreams and everything you love, but that would do no good and only cause pain and heartache. That is NOT a life to live. <br />
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Keep your head up and never lose sight of what makes you happy, driven, or able to wake up every morning. This is your life and you have the option to live it or live in it. If you simply choose to live in it, you're wasting your breath. <br />
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Que Sera, Sera...and life goes on -- this too, shall pass. <br />
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2010 is over. <br />
There is no looking back, only looking forward. <br />
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Only you control your own life, village, and happiness. Never let someone or something's negativity keep you from looking up and fulfilling your dreams -- you only get one shot.<br />
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Social media has been a blessing because it allows me to connect to my loves all over, near and far. But it has been a curse because being so connected online means being disconnected in reality. You've seen the commercials, everyone with their face in their phone, aware of their surroundings (that's a problem).<br />
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1*1*11 {Goodbye, Social Media -- Hello, Real World}<br />
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If you're lucky, find me on twitter -- ahmazingcveChristine V. Edmondhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14138730874189943822noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8024776888995637986.post-23189551526860916032010-12-27T01:34:00.000-05:002010-12-27T01:34:29.096-05:00Beauty in the Breakdown10/20/10 <br />
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I wish people would appreciate music the way I do. I really love an wide array of genres and try to be open to any suggestions. I love have a long list of songs/musicians I can turn to when I'm in any mood. I converted from a 32GB Zune this past Christmas to a 16GB iPod: WORST DECISION EVER.<br />
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I hate making decisions that seem like a good idea at the time and even though a lot of thought has gone into why I shouldn't engage in an activity, I still manage to do it. Peer pressure -- but from myself.Christine V. Edmondhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14138730874189943822noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8024776888995637986.post-89305973032802709592010-12-27T01:28:00.000-05:002010-12-27T01:28:43.965-05:00What are you saying? What do you mean?7/10/10<br />
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I created this blog to express myself. Because I knew that being able to visualize everything going on in my head would appear to be much clearer and I would at least be able to say everything that I need to say.<br />
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"Say what you mean and mean what you say." Is it better to say whats real then to always wonder what if or never know the answer?<br />
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Psychology is def one of my strong points and I'm glad that I've been able to invest so much time into my studies. If not, I would be fed up with so much of people's inconsistencies and abnormal activity. Now I can somewhat justify people's behaviors and thought process based on different personalities.<br />
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There's a Degrassi episode (416: Eye of the Tiger) after Jimmy (Aubrey Graham) is shot and goes back to life with his friends. And Spinner (Shane Kippel) confesses to Jimmy about being one of the people who set Jimmy up for Rick to be mad at him. Jimmy is furious and calls Spinner's decision to tell him selfish and questions why he didn't keep it to himself.<br />
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Since then, I've always wondered when it is appropriate to ""say what you mean and mean what you say.'' Spinner only told Jimmy because he was feeling guilty and wanted to clear his conscious -- but of course, that did not make the situation better and they stopped being friends for the next year and a half.<br />
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When it comes to confronting an issue, communication is key. The greatest things I value are respect and honesty because no matter how good, bad, or ugly it seems...the truth can never be overruled by anything else. And that's just the reality of the situation.<br />
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namaste.Christine V. Edmondhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14138730874189943822noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8024776888995637986.post-84824414791668639992010-12-27T01:14:00.001-05:002010-12-27T01:33:05.350-05:00Just think about life..<span style="font-family: '';">12.23.09 </span><ul><li><span style="font-family: '';">No one’s going to live your life for you.<o:p></o:p></span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: '';">It’s okay…it’s better this way…<o:p></o:p></span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: '';">You think you deserve that pain, but you don’t.<o:p></o:p></span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: '';">People think foot pain is a fact of life, but life is actually better than that. You should get some; your whole life could be better starting right now.<o:p></o:p></span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: '';">If he stops, he’ll fall off. Even if he slows down, he’ll fall. The best thing for that fish is just if he drive steadily forever.<o:p></o:p></span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: '';">I didn’t know you, but I want you to die knowing you were loved. I love you…At least we’re all together in this.<o:p></o:p></span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: '';">I don’t want to have to do this – this living! I just walk around! I want to be swept off my feet, you know? I want my children to have magical powers. I am prepared for amazing things to happen. I can handle it.<o:p></o:p></span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: '';">There are no time outs…there is just no time.<o:p></o:p></span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: '';">I’m trying to work on my karma. You know what karma means? She owes me one.<o:p></o:p></span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: '';">It’s kindof like that point in a relationship, you know, where you suddenly realize it’s not going to last forever. You can see the end in sight. ...Yeah, but we’re not even there yet; we’re still at a good part. We’re not even sick of each other yet.<o:p></o:p></span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: '';">Maybe we should just be glad we lived this long good life together. You know it’s so much more than most people get to have. Well, don’t be afraid…here we go…<o:p></o:p></span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: '';">You’re acting like I’m just this regular man. Like, a man in a book where the woman in the book meets. I’m sorry.<o:p></o:p></span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: '';">No, I don’t know I am a precious, wondrous, special, unique, divine, rare, valuable, whole, sacred, total, complete, entitled, worthy and deserving person. I don’t know that.<o:p></o:p></span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: '';">Email wouldn’t even exist if it weren’t for AIDS. Fear of contamination. Fear of bodily fluids.<o:p></o:p></span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: '';">We have a whole life to live together you f***er, but it won’t start until you call.<o:p></o:p></span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: '';">I learned to stop trying to make people do what they don’t want to do.<o:p></o:p></span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: '';">But she’s the love of your life. You’re just going to let her go? – No, she’s just going.<o:p></o:p></span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: '';">So this is it? This is the end of our relationship? This makes me sad, it really does.<o:p></o:p></span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: '';">I’m just passing time.<o:p></o:p></span></li>
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</style>Christine V. Edmondhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14138730874189943822noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8024776888995637986.post-76455545237841215922010-12-27T01:11:00.001-05:002010-12-27T01:29:29.971-05:00heartbreak.12.19.09<br />
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I actually have no song this time.<br />
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Wow. Have you ever felt like your insides have just been trampled on and you can't get up, but you know that you have to get up because that's the only way to keep moving and going and living your life and learning...........learning to live and breathe and accept and accomodate.<br />
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<b><span style="color: teal; font-family: Calibri; font-size: x-small;">I'm starting to feel numb again</span></b><br />
<b><span style="color: teal; font-family: Calibri; font-size: x-small;">but I don't think I want that to happen again</span></b><br />
<b><span style="color: teal; font-family: Calibri; font-size: x-small;">I kindof like feeling.<br />
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</span></b>Christine V. Edmondhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14138730874189943822noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8024776888995637986.post-29778546754945726752010-12-19T02:26:00.001-05:002010-12-19T02:28:33.772-05:00Guys, what are you waiting for?<div style="background-color: black; text-align: left;"><span class="leaves"><span style="color: #38761d;"><span style="color: red;"><span style="color: #3d85c6;">something i stumbled upon...</span></span></span></span></div><div style="background-color: black; text-align: left;"><span class="leaves"><span style="color: #38761d;"><span style="color: red;"><span style="color: #3d85c6;"> </span> </span></span></span></div><div style="background-color: black; text-align: center;"><span class="leaves"><span style="color: #38761d;"><span style="color: red;">Girls </span>are like</span><br style="color: #38761d;" /><span style="color: #38761d;"> apples on trees. The <span style="color: red;">best</span></span><br style="color: #38761d;" /><span style="color: #38761d;"> ones are at the <span style="color: red;">top </span>of the tree.</span><br style="color: #38761d;" /><span style="color: #38761d;"> The boys don't want to reach for</span><br style="color: #38761d;" /><span style="color: #38761d;"> the <span style="color: red;">good </span>ones because they are <span style="color: red;">afraid</span></span><br style="color: #38761d;" /><span style="color: #38761d;"> of <span style="color: #990000;">falling </span>and getting <span style="color: #990000;">hurt</span>. Instead, they</span><br style="color: #38761d;" /><span style="color: #38761d;"> just get the <span style="color: #990000;">rotten </span>apples from the ground</span><br style="color: #38761d;" /><span style="color: #38761d;"> that aren't as good, but <span style="color: #990000;">easy</span>. So the apples</span><br style="color: #38761d;" /><span style="color: #38761d;"> at the top think something is <span style="color: #990000;">wrong </span>with</span><br style="color: #38761d;" /><span style="color: #38761d;"> them, when in <span style="color: red;">reality</span>, they're <span style="color: red;">amazing</span>.</span><br style="color: #38761d;" /><span style="color: #38761d;"> They just have to wait for the <span style="color: red;">right</span></span><br style="color: #38761d;" /><span style="color: #38761d;"> <span style="color: red;">boy </span>to come along, the one</span><br style="color: #38761d;" /> <span style="color: #38761d;">who's <span style="color: red;">brave </span>enough</span></span> <span class="trunk" style="color: #783f04;"> </span><br />
<span class="trunk" style="color: #783f04;">to climb<br />
all the way<br />
to the top</span></div><div style="background-color: black; color: #783f04; text-align: center;"><span class="trunk"> of the tree.</span></div><div style="background-color: black; color: #783f04; text-align: center;"></div><div style="background-color: black; color: #783f04; text-align: center;"></div><div style="background-color: black; color: #783f04; text-align: center;"><span class="trunk"><span style="color: #3d85c6;">from <a href="http://www.stumbleupon.com/stumbler/bemyescape/">Megan</a></span> </span></div>Christine V. Edmondhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14138730874189943822noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8024776888995637986.post-50034371981198543012010-10-03T22:04:00.000-04:002010-10-03T22:04:25.771-04:00It's all so clear...but now what?What if we kissed?<br />
I think about you...I do. I did.<br />
But then it all stopped and it was over.<br />
Then -------- STOP.<br />
it has to be over.<br />
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Love is such a beautiful thing.<br />
I'm at this stage in my life where everything is just so beautiful; and the ugly around me doesn't even matter.<br />
It's all about living in that moment -- THAT is a beautiful thing.Christine V. Edmondhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14138730874189943822noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8024776888995637986.post-1654104647516194632010-09-11T02:29:00.000-04:002010-09-11T02:29:02.986-04:00Do you believe in magic?I want to see the world. I want to make a difference -- not in the world, per se...or maybe in some one's world. That would be beautiful. To make an impact on someone's world and become a person they would never forget.<br />
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Yeah, that's what I want to do. I want to be the change in you.<br />
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<3Christine V. Edmondhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14138730874189943822noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8024776888995637986.post-32417054743087379232010-07-10T15:23:00.000-04:002010-07-10T15:23:34.871-04:00What are you saying? What do you mean?I created this blog to express myself. Because I knew that being able to visualize everything going on in my head would appear to be much clearer and I would at least be able to say everything that I need to say.<br />
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"Say what you mean and mean what you say." Is it better to say whats real then to always wonder what if or never know the answer?<br />
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Psychology is def one of my strong points and I'm glad that I've been able to invest so much time into my studies. If not, I would be fed up with so much of people's inconsistencies and abnormal activity. Now I can somewhat justify people's behaviors and thought process based on different personalities.<br />
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There's a Degrassi episode (416: Eye of the Tiger) after Jimmy (Aubrey Graham) is shot and goes back to life with his friends. And Spinner (Shane Kippel) confesses to Jimmy about being one of the people who set Jimmy up for Rick to be mad at him. Jimmy is furious and calls Spinner's decision to tell him selfish and questions why he didn't keep it to himself.<br />
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Since then, I've always wondered when it is appropriate to ""say what you mean and mean what you say.'' Spinner only told Jimmy because he was feeling guilty and wanted to clear his conscious -- but of course, that did not make the situation better and they stopped being friends for the next year and a half.<br />
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When it comes to confronting an issue, communication is key. The greatest things I value are respect and honesty because no matter how good, bad, or ugly it seems...the truth can never be overruled by anything else. And that's just the reality of the situation.<br />
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namaste.Christine V. Edmondhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14138730874189943822noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8024776888995637986.post-8911394796475378132010-06-16T13:25:00.000-04:002010-06-16T13:25:26.146-04:00Why do people smile when no one's smiling?This is the kind of life that requires the maximum amount of focus, determination, ambition, and maybe a little tunnel vision. This kind of life is the one that has haters on every side, always trying to bring you down -- no matter what you do, good or bad.<br />
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I'm not a fan of this kind of life, but I understand that it takes more to be successful these days. Yes, ambition can get you far...but how far? And how long will it last?<br />
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It's time to take initiative and do things because it's what you want or need to do to survive or succeed in a world that is constantly pulling you down.<br />
Sometimes, people forget or lose sight of their original vision and why they are doing something. It doesn't matter what it is, but self-fulfillment is the ultimate goal.<br />
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I don't care how much you agree or disagree, but we work to be complete..even if it is in an ambiguous manner. Take helping other people by devoting to service..sure, people may be getting blessed by your gratitude, but ultimately, it makes you feel good so you continue to do service..yes, for yourself.<br />
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Humans are innately selfish. This is what I believe and it can be proven by multiple examples -- I'm sure even Mother Teresa enjoyed the spotlight more than intended. There are people who have fought selflessly, though, and I am in awe of them -- people like Ghandi and Martin Luther King Jr.<br />
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I'm over this facade of <i>pretending </i>to like or be a part of something that is not real. In the end, you're there standing in the dark when everyone else is doing whatever they need to without hesitation.<br />
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Spare the feelings, heartbreak, and drama. This is real life and it's happening right NOW.<br />
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To one and all -- get over yourself and what you think is the right thing..who's to say what's wrong and right anyway? Who's to say that everything we believe in that the world has to offer or not is even accurate?<br />
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Fantasy may be what people want and reality is what they need, but you better know how to take it all in once you get there...or you're just going to feel hopeless -- with or without determination, success, or haters standing in your way.<br />
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Keep it real; to yourself..and the people around you will then be able to adapt and operate to your true self.<br />
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Forever Luxy,<br />
Christine VictoriaChristine V. Edmondhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14138730874189943822noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8024776888995637986.post-59670606216107576702010-06-03T23:16:00.000-04:002010-06-03T23:16:07.192-04:00Live life the best way you canI'm an idealist. I believe that life can be everything we want as long as we dream that it is. If we just close our eyes and imagine a dream come true, it's possible. Perhaps I am too much of an optimist and is in denial of bad things happening to "good people."<br />
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<div style="text-align: center;">Live life like there's no tomorrow</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">And live the life you love..</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: left;">What's so wrong with loving a little spotlight? We've all had a passing desire to reach fame and fortune; some, more than others..and others, more than that. When I see a performance, I get chills in my bones; my skin begins to tingle, I become one with the program and escape into flow. I love it, but it hurts so bad.</div><div style="text-align: left;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: left;">I dream of my feelings when I am on the stage, performing, and gracing an audience with my words. Whether it's acting or singing, I feel this rush of adrenaline that I haven't felt in a long time. I have been deceiving myself in thinking that I could survive without performing my music or articulating the expression of a character that I have no ties to. I am in control of the way my character reacts and the best part -- the entire story is already written.</div><div style="text-align: left;">It seems impossible to me that people can live their life and throw away their dreams for nothing (I kindof understand children). Even love. You can always have you dream, but will it keep you warm at night? If you make it, you may have nice sheets that keep you warm. Other than that, not everyone's dreams come true -- that's the reality. I can only imagine how much more difficult it is to give up everything you have for your dream..but is it better to lose everything for your dream or something like drugs or gambling.</div><div style="text-align: left;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: left;">None of it is worth it. If you have a dream that you truly want, nothing is hard about incorporating them to your life now. The future may be bright, but it's important to have a plan -- a destination. </div><div style="text-align: left;"> </div><div style="text-align: left;">I may have let you down by not being real. I let myself down. I really have been slacking at life, and if you knew me before my sophomore year, then you know that I'm no longer the person I loved so much. It's funny. I say that I love it now, but I created a new version of myself because I was unsatisfied with where I was.</div>Christine V. Edmondhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14138730874189943822noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8024776888995637986.post-13222036309189577622010-04-29T19:27:00.000-04:002010-04-29T19:27:23.038-04:00mini- ReflectionsIt's been a while and school is coming to a close.<br />
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I can't believe it's almost over. This past school year has been crazy and fun and so successful. My grades continue to get better and I am so proud to wear three letters across my chest that mean so much more that meets the eye. I am an<b> <span style="color: #e06666;">Alpha</span> <span style="color: lime;">Kappa</span> <span style="color: #e06666;">Alpha </span></b>woman and I love it. =]<br />
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My life just seems to taste a little sweeter every day and I am nothing but grateful for it all. It's like that moment before the climax and you know something magnificent is going to happen, but you can't control it or touch it because you don't want to ruin it. That's it -- the feeling. The desire to sit at the edge, even though falling is a possibility, reaching the end feels worth it.<br />
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I am ready for the <i style="color: yellow;">summer</i>. I am ready to move forward with my life. I am prepared to sit as close to the edge without getting burned; without falling; without giving in.<br />
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Afterall, I just want to be <i><b>successful </b></i>:)Christine V. Edmondhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14138730874189943822noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8024776888995637986.post-56950710240443480982010-01-03T02:11:00.002-05:002010-01-03T02:19:44.929-05:00A Little Piece of Me: 2010<div style="text-align: justify;">I'm used to control. I love to be in control. Sometimes, I think I make it harder than it has to be, but I feel even more satisfied when I succeed. I am GREAT at planning and setting goals. I go through 3 periods every year (so I've noticed sinced 2006) where I change and set goals to do so. I've been able to grow and learn from everything I've experienced.<br /><br />So I just finished 2009 and I just could NOT figure out what I wanted my New Year resolutions to be. I decided on nothing except to succeed and be happy in all I do. Sounds good, but so incomplete; especially for me. I'm used to having plans and back ups for everything I do because you never know when life's going to lead you to disappointment. Not having that control drives me crazy.</div><p style="text-align: justify;">But I figured it out. I came to the realization of why I'm not prepared for 2010. The answer is simple: I already have everything I need.</p><p style="text-align: justify;">I am much closer to the person I've dream of becoming and only plan to grow with life lessons. I am open to having new experiences and meeting people that are prepared to alter their lives by adding me to it. I have met people that I see in my future and I hope our relationships only grow even stronger. I have a supportive family that pushes me to the best of my potential. I believe in a God where nothing is impossible. I have dreams tha can never be shattered, no matter how ridiculous they sound because I know where I'm going and how I want to get there.</p><p style="text-align: justify;">It's all I need...I'm still young... <3<br /></p>Christine V. Edmondhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14138730874189943822noreply@blogger.com0